if you had read a few of my last updates or even followed my tweets you would know that I applied for this job, maybe 8 weeks ago, it was an amazing job, there were 43 positions & 900 people applied. I didn’t get the job, which actually broke my heart, I really thought if I deserved it & wanted it bad enough maybe I would get it, and I didn’t so fuck me. This job would have changed my life entirely, but I guess I didn’t deserve it. Anyway, enough with my sob story, although I probably will be sooking about this for awhile. I did waste 8 weeks sitting around thinking I actually had a chance of getting the job that would change my life, that would allow me to send my grandparents on a first class holiday & even maybe starting building my dream. Apparently the same opportunity is happening again at the end of this year, so hopefully I’ll have a chance then.
I’m going to start job hunting next week in my hometown, trying to find some sort of income because I am so sick of being broke. I live in a small town so there aren’t many opportunities, I’ll probably end up in a supermarket or retail store until something better comes along, no disrespect to people who want to make a living in the retail/grocery business. So hopefully I’ll only be there till the end of the year, and I’ll finally get the job I want! There I go, getting ahead of myself again.
I’ve kind of been slacking with my weight loss regiment in the last two weeks, I’ve still been eating relatively healthy but have not been working out atall! I’ve been so sick, hopefully I’ll be over it by Tuesday & I’ll get my chubby ass back in the gym. I’m also going to start walking in the afternoons because I really need to get my arse back in to gear, so next week: gym, pilates & walking. Hopefully I won’t forget, someone remind me on Tuesday okay. Also I need to cut out diet coke, diet coke really paranoids me, I feel like I have to brush my teeth right after drinking it because it’ll stain my teeth, is that irrational? I don’t care, I’m cutting it out.
My guilty pleasure this month has been the TV show The Client List, like I have been obsessed. I didn’t really think I was going to like this show, but I downloaded one episode just to check it out & I loved it. I love shows with gorgeous men in them okay, I’m guilty plus I have such a girl crush on Jennifer Love Hewitt. I’ve been trying to recreate her hair all week, like omg it is perfect. Anyway, thats enough of an update! Hope everyone is having a lovely weekend. xoxo
Even Now - Dashboard Confessional
Even now I can smell the clothes, freshly from the wash, still hot from the dryer. Even now I can smell your skin, to wrap you in a towel, lay you on the bed and try to love you. Even now I can feel your arms, I can feel your breast, I can hear your songs and I always can find you again. Even now I can feel your hand gently over mine, with almost no weight at all. Even now I can feel your eyes, watch me as I strum, much too late at night. Even now I can see you smile, I can hear you hum, I can hear you sing and I always can find you again. Even in the dark of night, even in the lowest light, even as the world outside is spinning, and spinning. Even now I can feel your hair, blow across my cheek as we sit in one of two chairs. Even now I can feel your face, resting on my chest, wrestling for sleep and failing at it. Even now I can see you sleep, I can see you dream, I can see you fly and I always can find you again. 
First ever Nars purchase, and not my last. Okay let me just explain the blush I got, I think it’s a pretty outrageous colour, especially for me. I thought I had ordered Dolce Vita, but I must have clicked Desire instead. Here I was opening the box, expecting to see a gorgeous pinky-brown colour and seeing this bright pink instead! Oh god, I was shocked, but it isn’t too bad, as long as I use it lightly. I was abit uneasy about buying the Orgasm Illuminator, because I had heard mixed reviews about it, but I love it! It gives a subtle summer glow, I’m not usually one to go for the dewy look, I’m a matte girl but I love the look this gives! You can either mix it in with your foundation or just apply it to your cheeks. Of course for my first Nars purchase I had to get Turkish Delight, the lipgloss Kim K (I’m not a fan) made famous, & I’ve always admired her makeup. I’m not a big gloss wearer, actually I haven’t had a gloss in months, because well I like matte but I love this lipgloss! I think I might actually start wearing more lipgloss. Before I get any questions, about it, for all you Australian’s who can’t get ahold of Nars I ordered mine off kissandmakeupny.com, I don’t think you’ll find it as cheap anywhere in Aus. xoxo
