smoothies, movies and puppies;

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Reckless One -Sunday Lane

You can be careful and I’ll be the reckless one. I’ll get my heart broke but someday I will find love. I swear, that everything you say is filtered in a way that will keep you safe. I swear, that everything you do has already been thought through. You’re never taking chances so there’s no mistakes.

Happy Australia Day!

Not a very ‘australian’ Australia Day, but I feel like poo and I enjoyed myself okay. The Young Victoria is definitely my favourite movie, or one of them, it’s so beautiful. This is all I really plan on doing for the rest of Australia Day, obviously downloading the new episode of One Tree Hill is on the agenda and doing my nails, wooo. How was everyone else’s Australia Day, how did you celebrate or not celebrate? I did have vegemite on toast this morning, so I guess thats enough patriotism for one day. my mother has been a crazy air-con nazi today, like this Australia, it’s hot as hell, I feel like a marshmallow roasting over a fire. I can’t stand summer okay, reason #249734 I should have been British. Wow, did I really say that on a Australia Day, ma bad.

Sometimes being a girl isn’t fabulous;

It’s that time of the month, where I want to kill everyone, when I have no apetite, where I don’t want to leave my bed, when I look like a before shot off a Proactiv ad, cramps are out of control and I cry at the drop of a hat. Only things that can make me feel better this time of the month are Indie, chicken noodles and How I Met Your Mother. I try to avoid any sad movies or tv shows during this month because any little thing will make me cry cause my hormones be running wild. I think every girl has a different way of dealing with this week.

teenage girl breakdown.

I’ve been really sad lately, and lonely. I miss school, I miss my old life, I miss having a reason to get up in the morning, I don’t even know who I am anymore or what to do. I feel like I have no self confidence, none at all. All of you know that I’m not the skinnest girl in the world, I am a chubster, thicker than a snicker, but I’ve never been what I would class as thin and I’ve just always dealt with it, tried to change it a few times but I love food too much okay. I’m really sick of looking in the mirror and not seeing the person I want to be, sick of not feeling comfortable with my body, sick of people saying I would be pretty if I was skinny, it really sucks. I’ve spent almost everyday in bed for the last month, I’m like a fucking hermit crab. I’ve never really been one to post intimate and personal stuff on here, I’m never intimate or open with anyone, I’m terrified of looking weak but I feel like I need to say it to someone or write it somewhere and most of you are strangers to me. I use to be a pretty social person, always going out with friends and ect, but lately I’ve just put up all of these walls and haven’t really spoken to any of my friends, I’m very good at pushing people away. I’m ashamed of my body, ashamed of what I think about myself, I even feel like I’m embarrassing my friends when I’m with them. I’m scared to eat in public, I couldn’t have cared less a few months ago, but I’ve become so fragile and judgemental on myself lately. I’m always one to say, okay next week I’m starting a diet, next week I’ll watch what I eat, next week I’ll change myself but it never sticks but I think I’ve finally found my determination. I’ve never been this sad or this effected by my weight before and it’s such a smack in the face.

I know this post is probably very cliche and lame, but I don’t care I needed to talk to someone, I’m really sad at the moment and tumblr is suppose to be a place where I can write lame tragic shit like this.  

What’s on my nails;

I actually have no idea what colour this is, I have a feeling it might be I Think In Pink or Italian Love Affair. But I love this colour, I actually got a bunch of mini OPIs for spending $100 on normal OPIs. The little bottles are so cute, I think they are a great way of trying out colours before buying them, especially because a 15ml OPI is $20 in Australia, it’s ridiculous. I find it so hard to find a pink that suits my pasty skintone, I’ve always made the mistake of buying pinks with peachy undertones and they looked horrible with my skin, but this is the perfect pink.  

a few pictures of my room;

I’ve received a few messages asking for me to take pictures of my room, it’s nothing special but I like it. I would have taken a picture of my bed but I didn’t feel like making it or getting all the stuff off of it, and it’s just a bed. My room is small with a very high ceiling and I like to think of it as a cave that I can stay in for weeks at a time. I would love to do some renovations to my room, maybe a chandelier, whiter walls, hang my mirror on the wall, but I can’t because we are only renting.

My duchess is filled with products and things that I use everyday. The photo you can see above is a photo taken by my father, when my parents were still together after we came home from a carnival. I look so happy with my face painted like a clown, and my mum looks so beautiful and happy it makes my heart melt. I think I was like 3 at the time? It’s one of my favourite photos. Some of my favourite things on my duchess are my baby pink GHD, my Juicy Couture bracelet, and pretty much everything else. 

If you know me, then you know I have a massive obsession with perfume. I love to smell good, and not to sound up myself but I always do - hawluh. This is only a small part of my perfume collection, I have another two somewhere else on my duchess and bunch of others I can’t stand the smell of anymore in the cupboard. I have a serious obsession and I love it. Although I’m not a fan of Princess by Vera Wang, it’s such a pretty bottle. 

My jewellery box that I only got two weeks ago, is already overflowing! I got it from Target for, I wanna say $40? I love it, it holds all of my jewellery and I had been looking for something like this for ages! In the first two draws I have, alot of bobby pins because well I always loosing them like every other girl, in the other side I have earrings and two Chanel lipsticks. In the second draw on the left side I keep all of my fashion rings and the other side I keep all of my real jewellery, I don’t feel really safe showing everyone where I keep them, especially when I know people irl read my blog, I’m definitely going to move them now. The final draw is just a bunch of random pieces, mainly bracelets, rings and some feather earrings. 

My wardrobe where I keep none of my clothes except for a few gowns, my formal, graduation and an evening dress. I use to hang my bags and necklaces on my door handles but everytime I would close my door or open it would make such a loud noise so I decided to hang them in my closet. Yes, they are hanging on bent coat hangers, I’m so ghetto. Hanging I have a few bags that I use the most, a Target Save The World calico bag, Guess brown leather handbag and a brown satchel bag from Topshop and also a few scarfs. At the bottom of my wardrobe I keep a few pairs of my favourite shoes. 

My iMac that is more of a TV than a computer, I use it to feed my addiction of One Tree Hill, Gossip Girl, and a shitload of other things. Also a small pile of books and magazines, Lauren Conrad, Kardashian (worst book ever, omg), Breakfast At Tiffany’s, Cleo, Cosmo and Vogue. & that pretty much wraps up my room tour, riveting I know.  

I have some exciting news!

Well, it’s exciting for me anyway. Me and mum have decided to build a house together! Considering that I own a large piece of land, I did plan on selling it but today mother brought up that we should build a house on it instead. It’s so exciting! Mum is even letting me design the whole house, top to bottom, except for her room. Now nothing is set in stone, but it has really got me excited! I’ve always had a passion for interior design but I’ve never really had the chance or opportunity considering we rent our current house and we aren’t even aloud to hang things on the walls. I can’t even tell you how excited I am for this, I wish we could just start it all tomorrow but it’ll be at least a year until things start getting serious mainly because we only just signed another contract to stay another year here. I have so many plans for the house, especially my bedroom and walk in wardrobe, mother surprising has agreed to give me the master bedroom. I’m probably getting ahead of myself, but I am so so excited for this. I’ll keep yous up to date as things start to move along, and hopefully they do!

Lazy Day;

On my nails; Glitz Blitz

I lasted a whole two days with my first set of Sally Hansen nail strips on, not because they didn’t last just because I really didn’t like the pattern but I absolutely love these. They really compliment my pasty skin tone and I’m sure they would suit every skin tone. I’m a sucker for glitter and these went on a lot neater and cleaner, I really really love them. I can’t wait to get more of these, they are fantastic. I’ll definitely be keeping these on for as long as possible.  

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Kiss Me - Ed Sheeran

And your heart’s against my chest, your lips pressed in my neck. I’m falling for your eyes, but they don’t know me yet. And with a feeling I’ll forget, I’m in love now. Kiss me like you wanna be loved. You wanna be loved. You wanna be loved. This feels like falling in love. Falling in love. We’re falling in love.